Have you ever been in a space that you feel is self-destructive, but you just can’t seem to get out of it no matter what you try? I have, in fact, I’m in one right now. The type of space I’m in offers room for joy, love, and learning, but also an unlimited supply of instability, confusion, worry, anxiety, and the scariest of them all…Quiet Nothing.
Now, let me explain a bit more. Usually, I lavish the empty spaces in my life and really flourish in them as spaces to grow and dream. I’m not afraid of them, but rather appreciate them and enjoy the sometimes uncomfortable opportunity to roam in such a space. But this space of Quiet Nothing is different and unique, it's more than uncomfortable, it is stagnant and unclear...it is blank space.
I am incredibly challenged by this type of space as a very spiritual, self-motivated, and determined individual. Given this, each day is a battle while in this space. Each day I fight against old unproductive behaviors that no longer serve my being and instead work on practices that encourage and nourish my inner self. I strive to find peace in the space of Quiet Nothing with meditation, listening to my needs, feeding my soul with music and motivational books, getting out in nature, moving my body to improve my emotions, eating healthy, relinquishing expectations, and accomplishing small steps. Even with all of this, including a few “break down” moments…still…Quiet Nothing.
Unfortunately, I have no flow chart diagram for spaces like these. What I do know is this; in these spaces of Quiet Nothing we need to keep swimming. We need to be persistent and strengthen our mental and spiritual endurance muscles. As an individual who lives by faith, I continually remind myself that there is a whole lot going on in the background that needs to align before an opportunity can present itself. Trust in the process, and let go of the rest. So much easier said than done I know, as letting go is one of the hardest things in the world for me. So, I tend to do it often and repeatedly as I firmly believe that letting go creates space to receive.
“By letting go, it all gets done”- Lao Tzu
Are you pressed for time and you need to act now, but still in Quiet Nothing? Me too.
All we can do about this is to trade the worry and stress for joy in each moment and take it day by day. Literally, sometimes even hour by hour. Feeling ready, doesn’t necessarily mean the universe is ready. I’m the kind of person who will take huge leaps of faith, is inspired (and scared shitless) by fear, will work my fingers to a bone to accomplish anything, and will never give up on a dream no matter how many rejections. That is part of the reason why these spaces of Quiet Nothing are so damn challenging.
There is a piece of the puzzle I think the majority of self-help and motivational books and talks are missing. For those of us that are spiritual, we need a little more than just “get up and go” kind of advice. In fact, we are trying like hell to "get up and go" while staying in balance by feeding our souls, but find ourselves going nowhere and caught in the Quiet Nothing?!
For the magic to happen, we also need a spiritual guidance element or intuition that is aligned with our passion. To do this, we also need to keep our ears and eyes open in order to receive guidance in due time. Who knows how long it will take? What I do know is that in this moment, in this hour, I finally feel some peace reflecting on this. That’s how I know I am still on the right track while in the space of Quiet Nothing.
Still looking for answers? Me too, but instead of looking, what if we ask to ourselves to receive the answers instead?