Recently when traveling in the Azores Islands, a fresh need hit me loud and clear. An overwhelming sensation and realization that I was tired of traveling washed over me. I believe the words I said out loud with confidence were “I’m done traveling alone, I need a break, I’m exhausted…at least for now.” There was so much strength in receiving the message and immediately expressing it out loud as it came to me.
But how could I be tired of traveling, I’m a wanderlust soul?!
So, I began to dig a little deeper, and ask myself why I was feeling that way. I grabbed a pen and paper and started with the facts. The facts are that within the past year, the longest time I have stayed in one place was 3 months, I’ve slept in over 38 different beds, have visited 7 countries (not including airport layovers), and visited 34 islands. Writing this on paper with a heart overflowing with gratitude, it became clear to me how my journey of self needs was changing and I’m stoked to pursue my new need in self for deeper grounding and pursuing my passion. PhD, I’m coming for ya…and I’m finally ready!
The Greek philosopher, Heraclitus was on point when he said, “The only thing constant is change.”
This is why it’s so important to check in with yourself on a regular basis, because what you need changes often. What used to work for you may no longer in another space and time. What I needed 8 months ago, is not necessary what I need today. Today I know that I desire a home base somewhere abroad, a place to sleep for more than 3 months, a place to hang my clothes, cook amazing meals, host gatherings of good company, learn another language to a conversational level, and most importantly build community. So, that is what I’ve set out to do…and for me the challenge is taking baby steps regularly. Everyday, make the time to pursue my steps and meditate on my desires from within. Have the courage to fight for you.
My current journey involves learning to trust this process and let go, which I know to be a forever practice for me. Finding and creating a home base is not a leash for my traveling soul, but quite the opposite. It’s a form of self-care and grounding that is much needed in my life in this moment. I absolutely cannot wait to spend my next large chunk of time living abroad. This time the challenge is a little different; learning to grow roots a little deeper, and requires trust in self a little greater.
What needs do you need to honor in yourself today? Can you feel the peace and strength in honoring this growth in yourself. I challenge you to ask and listen to what you need in this moment, then make steps to honor that for yourself. We are all in this together, and what a wild ride it is!